To be a better person.

It took me so long to type this post and I'm honestly really reluctant.

I guess I'm just really used to being the one who constantly wants the ones around me to be happy. The truth is, I think I'll be happy only when they are happy.

Perhaps bottling up my feelings isn't going to be the best way indeed.
Having a private instagram account was not making me feel better in any way. Others used their private accounts or some say second account to relieve their feelings but I did not. Instead, it was used as a spam account for me. I guess that it was also due to the fact that I hated bringing negativity to anyone, let alone mine.

After thinking for a really long time, I really needed a platform for me to express my thoughts. This shall be it.

Many things have happened the past few days.

One of the recent ones was the conversation I had with Yong. His words did make me think. I thought  of the kind of person which I should strive to be better, again.

I'm constantly trying to be a better person that I am of yesterday. This may sound really selfish but I ask for your patience and understanding, friends.

Finally, I apologised to him. We did not particularly drift, but we did not text as much. I felt guilty for it because I did not think that a drop in text would mean that much to him. Thinking back and around, I know that I have to put myself into his shoes. He's not in Sg and is in the US. He might be afraid that he would be forgotten by us. Moreover, it's never easy for an introvert like him to make new friends, let alone finding true friends. Then I apologised. I guess that isn't a big deal to many people but it is to me. I guess I'm one who has much ego instilled ever since I stepped foot onto this planet. I felt a sense of relief when I apologised to him and told him that I'm still trying to be a better person.

And I will never stop trying.

Further back a few days ago, Dad and I had kinda bickered in a way. It was awful because the cold war lasted for a few days which was the longest cold war the both of us had by far. His job then got in his way, causing him twice as troubled. I did not think that our bickering would hurt him that much because I clearly did not know where I went wrong, I clearly did not know how a small problem could cause him to be this mad at me. I still felt that everything was just blunt on the surface until I received a call from Mom one morning only to find out that Dad and her went for a drink at the coffeeshop and he cried. I felt a slight tug at the heart as I hear those words spoken by Mom.

Again, many things went through my mind again. Although I did not know where I have gone wrong, but I still felt that Dad needed my comfort then at that point, telling him that everything's okay, that I'm not mad at him anymore. Shan that told me that I should apologise to him for having used a rather rude tone towards hims when we bickered, but I felt reluctant to do so due to that annoying ego in me.
I know that I'm not one who apologises when I know that I'm not in the wrong because I just don't see the need to when it's not my fault. However, I learnt that an apology sometimes doesn't mean to be aware of your mistake and express your sincerity that you were in the wrong, or to seek forgiveness. Apology sometimes might just mean wanting to let the person you really care about to feel better.
Should I use the phrase to "give-in"?
I don't think so for this case, it's Dad I'm talking about here. I should have done so.
Yet I didn't. God knows what was holding me back. Tris even told me that perhaps I should just sit down and talk things out with Dad, but nope I didn't.

Again, I disappointed myself. I've let myself down time and time again.
I don't know when I would be able to relay this apology to you Dad, but I promise to be a better person. I'm sorry, Dad.

Just yesterday, Tris and I talked and I realised how much I missed her.
She called me just to tell me about a recent event which made her really really happy.
I saw those sparks in her eyes as she was telling me and I genuinely felt touched and really happy for her.
Tho it wasn't something most people would recognise it as something worth the celebration, but I know it was for her. Then I realised again, sometimes the kind of things that you are happy about doesn't really matter, what matters most is that YOU ARE HAPPY.

I was so proud of her and genuinely, I felt that her hard work has paid off. I'm looking forward to more happy events happening in the near future. :)

To sum it all up, everyday is a lesson for me and I honestly can't wait to learn more new things in life, regardless of what kind of things it is.
I only have a life for me to realise the countless things in the world and I literally can't wait for it.

I would also like to thank Tris for encouraging me to have an outlet to channel all of my emotions to. Afterall, I'm a human as well.

I won't change immediately in an instance, however one step at a time, I will, through instances, ups and downs in life. Yes not to lie that I dislike the sour instances however, the sweet only comes after the sour. I'm prepared for it, to constantly make positive changes in my life. :)

Mummy's Day 2016

So yesterday was Mothers' Day and an annual simple celebration was done, as usual! My eldest sisters and I were deciding between Riders' Cafe and The Refinery for my fam to have brunch at. We ended up with Riders' cafe as it was located nearer to us. So my eldest sis made a call in advance to check for the available seats because as we all know, it's full house EVERYWHERE whenever it comes to days with special occasions. So thankfully, we managed to hog a table without queuing for long (an estimation of 30-40mins) which would usually happen if you were to dine in during the peak hours.

We arrived at 2.30pm and managed to get a table which was THANKFULLY a cooling spot as well because when weather affects mood, mood affects meal, affected meal affects intended celebration, which would be as good as having none. :)

Riders Cafe, located at Bukit Timah, deeeeeeeeeeeeeepppp into the road, there you'd find many horses of different shapes (rounder and less round), sizes and colours as well as a simple white house called "Riders Cafe".

Riders Cafe 
51 Fairways Dr, 286965

The view from the outdoor seats of the Riders Cafe.

Here's Mummy trying to pose for a candid shot HAHAHAHA #potentialmodel

The interior of the Riders Cafe which was built on a second storey off the ground.

Mummy's halfway mixed iced frap!!

We ordered 1 set of meal, each of our own choice but we ended up munching on everyone's portions because we had all of them on the center of the table and shared among ourselves. *AWWWzies*

First meal up was one of the famous dishes in Riders' and that was the Riders' Burger!!!

Well these two kinda came together so lying beside that fatassss burger right above would be the Smoked Salmon and Sweet Corn Hash (MY ORDER #PROUD) which was amaaaaaazeeeeballs. Wtf I decided on this as soon as I saw "salmon", "poached eggs", "sweet corn", "avocado" lying on the same line. YES AVOCADOSSSSSS!!! I LOVE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING WITH AVOCADOS!!!!!!!

First World Problem #103: "Hmmm..... Which part of the dish should I go for next?"

The inside of the Riders' Burger, layer and layer of yums. However, I kinda thought that the beef was a little too hard. :/ One of the plus points of the Riders Burger was definitely the mushrooms, I LOVE THEM.

SMOKED SALMON AND SWEET CORN HASH!!!!

CAN WE ALL JUST TAKE A MOMENT TO EMBRACE THIS MOMENT. THIS HEAVENLY MAN MADE INVENTION. THE WARM VOLCANIC LAVA EGGS. COVERED BENEATH IT IS THE FRESHASS SALMON, TOGETHER WITH GOD'S LEGENDARY INVENTION AKA AVOCADOS, AND THE TINT OF SWEETNESS FROM THE SWEETASS CORNS. ALL, TOGETHER, IN YOUR MOUTH. That's it, I'm done. Basically just sex in my mouth.

HAHAHA. Here's my eldest sis in the midst of cutting that Riders' Burger after my dad basically lost his cool from trying to do so, so he gave up. 

Next next up, the Blackstone Benedict!! Of which, is one of Riders Cafe's well known dishes as well!! (with bacon, tomatoes, poached eggs and hollandaise sauce on sourdough) The sourdough was meant to be on the hard side when you bite into, it was similar to the texture of an English muffin, but the hardened version of it. Mummy simply labelled it as "Hard Roti." Lmfao.

Looking somewhat similar to the previous one was this, the Pacific Benedict (with Swimmer Crabs, poached eggs, spinach and Shrimp Hollandaise.)

Homemade sausage and scrambled eggs with harissa hollandaise sauce!!!

Btw, by this time, we were already feeling a little sick as we hadn't realised this particular moment ^ that we were had been having eggs in almost all of our meals. Felt a little reluctant on this one right after that though, but I was glad that I made that bite on it because the eggs in this were so yummy alright. Fluffy, soft and cheesy!!! *Gives that loud and wet peck on my "ok" sign on my fingers.* *MUACKS!*

This was actually my favourite photo of the day. :') The grumpy 24h dad and overly worried 24h mum. Loved how this shot turned out, credits to the natural lighting. OOOHH AND BY THE WAY,  THANK YOU TO THE ELDEST SISSY FOR GETTING THAT MINI BOUQUET OF FLOWERS WHICH I HAD CONTRIBUTED ZERO CENTS TO IT.

Kinda love this shot as well bcos my dad looks like he's in the midst of making a life changing decision. The FINALLY a-little-healthier dad :)

Here's one with us three, the completely non-lookalike yet are blood related (maybe not) sisters. We DO NOT resemble each other at all, nor do any of our characters are similar to one another. We've been getting "Gosh you three are actually sisters?! Yall don't resemble each other!" our whole lives. :') It's fine, we are still in the midst of investigating as well. :)

THE YIN SQUAD #FAMBAM

WITH LE MOMSIEPOO.

My face is actually a lot bigger than yours mummy. 

THAT'S IT. PRETTY SIMPLE. AS SIMPLE AS THE LOVE THAT MUMMY HAS BEEN SHOWERING OVER OUR FAMILY. ❤❤❤

Happy Mothers' Day to all of the strong and powerful moms in the world because I honestly think that no mums in this world could actually be weak because it's already physically, spiritually, emotionally and mentally tiring to have a human being in your god damn body wherever you go for 7/8/9/10 months. So don't, don't even try on the subjects of giving birth to one or even raising one. :) SO PLEASE, START BEING GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL AND APPRECIATIVE TOWARDS YOUR MUM ALREADY(?!), IF YOU HAVEN'T.

THIS, TO WEE AI YEE:

I love you Mummy, I have never said to your face in real life. It might be a shocker to most people, but not to our fam bam. Please don't feel sad about that, because you do know that deep down that I do am I right HEHEHEEHEHE. In fact, you know i'd show you through my actions instead of words. At the end of the day, what are words if you don't mean them when you say them naw? ;) You, an immensely tired and worn out soul just trying to breathe for air, you, an incredibly strong woman who has never failed to put us brats and your husband (whose having PMS 24/7 of the time) before you despite your ridiculous and rude scoldings and complaints which I am clearly not even going bring a single bit of it up because it turns my mood 360 degrees towards the down side, yet deeper down I know what lies beneath all those words is nothing but just love. 

Please carry on tolerating all of our bullshits because there would definitely be more to come. More tears, more laughters, more love, from your family to you Mummy. WE ALL LOVE YOU.

THANK YOU ALL FOR READING. KISSES AND BREADS AND DESSERTS AND FOOD AND SMILES AND BYE. TILL NEXT TIME!!!!!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Stown Date

Waddup peeps! So a few days ago, Xian Kai and I decided to go on a stown date. For those who have no idea what in the world is a stown date, that is a term which I came up with. Stown basically represents going to Town to hang and chill yet having a Study date on the same day. So it's meant for a day of having the best of both worlds. I'm pretty proud that it kinda made sense yet it kinda doesn't. :')

Alright, so here are some shots taken by us which took us a century before we were finally done for the day!! :'D On the other hand, we were pretty proud of our shots although it was tiring as heck, it was worth it at least. :') 

 

 

 

THANK YOU FOR READING AND TILL NEXT TIME, 

❤